In a few more hours I will journey to Tulgey Woods. I spoke to the Queen of Hearts yesterday, only to be reminded of how much I would rather lazily lay under the tree looking at the butterflies.
Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum will no doubt be awaiting my arrival, although they are entertaining, sitting listening to nonsense can be quite trying. I am however, looking forward to seeing the mome raths and other creatures of the woods.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Alice quote
Alice
I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!
I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!
Real Life Alice
Lately my mind has been all over the place, racing from one subject to another, from one daydream to another. Seems as though I cannot clear my head lately. Between pressuring myself to lose weight, write my novel and get through the holidays, I feel like I am swimming through the air with no sense of direction. My dress is over my head and I am free falling watching the chairs, lamps, and tables float above my head in this never-ending tunnel.
For a few years I felt complete, then one day I woke up and felt like I had slammed into the hard checkered floor of the rabbit hole. I drank from the wrong bottle and now I am too tall to fit inside the door. If I ever catch up with the white rabbit, then what? And why am I chasing him in the first place?
Then there is The Queen of Hearts, forever in the way...quite menacing yet I must bow and curtsy with much reluctance or else my head will get chopped off.
Occasionally the Cheshire Cat appears when least expected to help point me in the right direction, however it is not without frustration at trying to decipher his riddles. He smiles then disappears as suddenly as he appears.
I've visited the Mad Hatter and attended his tea party, only to never eat one crumb of cake or drink the tea in the numerous pots chaotically placed on the long table. Enough with switching chairs, I want my permanent place at the table.
For a few years I felt complete, then one day I woke up and felt like I had slammed into the hard checkered floor of the rabbit hole. I drank from the wrong bottle and now I am too tall to fit inside the door. If I ever catch up with the white rabbit, then what? And why am I chasing him in the first place?
Then there is The Queen of Hearts, forever in the way...quite menacing yet I must bow and curtsy with much reluctance or else my head will get chopped off.
Occasionally the Cheshire Cat appears when least expected to help point me in the right direction, however it is not without frustration at trying to decipher his riddles. He smiles then disappears as suddenly as he appears.
I've visited the Mad Hatter and attended his tea party, only to never eat one crumb of cake or drink the tea in the numerous pots chaotically placed on the long table. Enough with switching chairs, I want my permanent place at the table.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
When is high school over?
To you know who:
It has recently been brought to my attention that my fb posts have caused some distress, however, I have never posted anything remotely as horrible as these people have accused me of.
I am not a hypocrite, yes, we have had a difficult past, and yes, there are reasons why I cannot seem to move forward regarding "our relationship" but I would never blatantly post cruel things about you. I can understand if my blog upset you, but I will not apologize for it because I have every right to vent. You have never made me feel completely welcome, and the few times we have been together it seems there was always some complaint about me. Therefore if you have any further problems, please address them to me and we can further discuss it. Do not throw someone we both love in the middle. It's annoying and uncalled for.
I am here and you know how to contact me.
It has recently been brought to my attention that my fb posts have caused some distress, however, I have never posted anything remotely as horrible as these people have accused me of.
I am not a hypocrite, yes, we have had a difficult past, and yes, there are reasons why I cannot seem to move forward regarding "our relationship" but I would never blatantly post cruel things about you. I can understand if my blog upset you, but I will not apologize for it because I have every right to vent. You have never made me feel completely welcome, and the few times we have been together it seems there was always some complaint about me. Therefore if you have any further problems, please address them to me and we can further discuss it. Do not throw someone we both love in the middle. It's annoying and uncalled for.
I am here and you know how to contact me.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
pancakes, preschool, bipolar depression, & civil war wedding
These four words/subjects can basically describe my life right now. In between writing a civil war wedding scene for the next best selling novel to hit bookstores worldwide (my dream) and trying to perfect my pancakes for the most picky eater (my daughter); I am also trying to pull a loved one out of a deep dark depression.
Needless to say, life per usual is exhausting, but there has to be a silver lining....right?
So yesterday I did what any other individual would do in such a circumstance, I cried. I cried till I thought all the tears had run dry, then guess what? More tears ensued.
Looking back at less than 24 hrs ago, I have yet to come up with a plan, other than to "try try try" ---as my daughter Maya told me today when she heard me scream in the kitchen.
I opened the refrigerator door and stared at the numerous boxes of old Chinese food, and plastic containers of leftovers from the week before. I asked Maya what she was talking about and she told me she was referring to a Ni-hao Kailan cartoon she had seen the night before. I simply laughed because it was good advice coming from a 3 1/2 yr old.
Maybe if I start looking at the world through a child's viewpoint then I won't go insane over the life's little quirks.
Needless to say, life per usual is exhausting, but there has to be a silver lining....right?
So yesterday I did what any other individual would do in such a circumstance, I cried. I cried till I thought all the tears had run dry, then guess what? More tears ensued.
Looking back at less than 24 hrs ago, I have yet to come up with a plan, other than to "try try try" ---as my daughter Maya told me today when she heard me scream in the kitchen.
I opened the refrigerator door and stared at the numerous boxes of old Chinese food, and plastic containers of leftovers from the week before. I asked Maya what she was talking about and she told me she was referring to a Ni-hao Kailan cartoon she had seen the night before. I simply laughed because it was good advice coming from a 3 1/2 yr old.
Maybe if I start looking at the world through a child's viewpoint then I won't go insane over the life's little quirks.
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